round two?

I just realized something. 


what is happening now seems like happened before. de ja vu, I must say. It was four years ago--I was a senior in my high school then, that I liked a guy. I didn't know why (well actually, whenever I liked a certain person, I cannot distinguish what trait of him I wanted), but moving on. This guy that I liked before, he admittedly told me that he didn't want me. FACE-to-FACE. whenever I would text him, he will not reply. whenever he would text, I would gladly text him back. There was even an incident that he told me we will watch a movie, then I ended up watching alone. what a jerk right? But after a few months, things went well--we ended up together. That relationship lasted a year. I loved him so much that it wasn't easy to move on. He was my first serious boyfriend. But that was the past. 


And now after two years, here I am again--liking a guy who I believe does not like me at all. The cycle similar to my past bf was the same. I would text, he wouldn't reply. He would text, and I can't resist not to reply. Here I am again, hoping for him. I would see him once a month, and that's it, nothing more. He would always tease me, but I didn't care. For me, his actions meant a lot to me. Probably, I was the only one giving meaning to them. I expected he would somehow feel the same way for me.

I am confused--wanting to ask him what is it with us. Realizing what happened in the past, made me once again expecting that he would like me eventually, like my past bf did. Instead of giving up, more and more I wanted to push myself in his life. So am I actually doing the right thing? 


Is it another round of this like-hate-then-love relationship? well, I do hope so, but minus the breaking up part.